Wednesday, July 14, 2004

Wednesday's gettin' better.

Time and Money. We all need it. Our society demands our time, so we can work to make money, so we can have luxuries and benifits that help us enjoy life, but they all cost money and take time, then we have our other responsibilities on top of that (ie bills, rent, family, friends, relationships, hobbies, health, etc...), and it becomes a vicious cycle of eternally working so we are happy, even though most people aren't truely happy at their job because it is not what they really want to do with their life.

I'm not exactly sure what I want to do anymore. I know I want to do something creative. I think I have just left all windows open so I can take any direction I want to. I'd do almost anything in the Audio or Graphics field. I figure once I find a job that I truely enjoy, that'll be my career. I'm not totally unsatisfied with my current job, I'm just not wanting to be the person who holds the responsibilities of this position anymore. That being said, I'm not going to do something stupid and throw this job away. I am going to wait until I have something better lined up first. At my current job, I have 4 official job titles, and everyone thinks they are my boss sometimes. The more I stay here, the more people think they can take frustrations out on me. It can be pretty stressful at times. By the time I go home at the end of the day, I am usually quite braindead. It makes it hard to go home and want to look at a computer screen for another bunch of hours and attempt to be creative. I've updated my resume but I think it's still a bit too big so I'll have to slim it down a bit. Looking for a job is yet another thing that takes time and can be pretty tricky. I'm not trying to sound like a complainer cuz, I know I should really just "count my blessings" cuz I am fortunate to have what I have, but, everyone is always trying to better themselves right? I guess I just need to stop saying it and just do it.

Occasionally I write a list of everything I want to do and everything that I want. Then I cross off the things that I accomplish. It helps as a reminder and feels good when I see the list get smaller and smaller. I think it's time for another one of those.

First albums of the day:

Julie Cruise : The Voice of Love

the music was written by Angelo Badalamenti
and the lyrics by David Lynch (if you liked the music from Twin Peaks, well, this is pretty much it)

The Doors : The best of the Doors

normally, I'm not a big fan of many "best of" albums cuz they are usually full of the overplayed songs of the artists, but, with the Doors, I can listen to almost any of their albums when I am in a Doors mood.


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